Having a bit of an existential dilemma, on top of severe gender dysphoria, some self worth issues involving the layoff, some hopelessness from remembering my years unemployed during the original Dot Com bust and how it's happening again, a touch of lonliness from living alone for so long, cabin fever because I haven't gone out in a while and because of a Covid exposure keeping me homebound for now, and...

To put it bluntly: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kzoN-CvH0qU