i started with the goal of writing trans wish fulfillment smut.
instead i'm now writing an introspective story about identity and selfhood.
fuuuuuuck i just wanted to write trashy trans shit
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@persenche - Flashback to 1988: Me writing a story about someone who switched genders and hated it and being stunned when I realized I was writing about my own assigned gender and why I hated it.
@persenche - I never really let go of that story myself because it became a nice exploration in character and identity which is something I really enjoy.
I just kind changed it from "hate of my new gender" to "unhappiness with all the new feels, and I'd like to get back as soon as possible."
@dolari i used to get about a page into writing gender exploration stories as a teenager and then I'd get too embarrassed and too afraid of discovery to continue.
and now that all i want to do is write the same kind of trashy force-fem trans stuff I was reading as a teen, I'm stuck with all these Significant Gender Thoughts i need to handle to really find my own writing believable. 😅