zx3 @zx3@driveinsaturday.org

i've been thinking a lot about memory and perception lately, and as a result a couple of my hyperfoci have neatly dovetailed in a way that makes a scary amount of sense. it was right in front of me, all this time.

will talk about it later, when i'm not sleepy.

"the Pyramid is opening!"

"which one?"

"the one with the ever-widening hole in it!"

even a temple in ruins is a suitable place for communion.

remember Danny the Car Wiper.

https://youtu.be/u6kHN92Yv48?si=Bv2C9fur__eabB_Q

if you celebrate today, or if you don't, if you're happy or melancholy this time of year, however the season finds you, remember: you are made of stars. together we light up the darkest corners of the universe. may peace and joy go with you in the coming year.

https://youtu.be/tLPkpBN6bEI?si=IfG0CHpK9CZeYHgA

Let's Have A Brian Eno Christmas

feel so clean like a monkey machine

i don't get it. why don't i stay drunk *all the time?*

SHUT UP LIVER,.I OUTRANK YOU

"what knockers!" "oh! thank you, doctor."

if i was writing (co-writing) Metatokyo 2058 / Metatokyo 2061: The Long Shadows Of Destiny today, i'd probably be angling to sell the property to a Chinese mobile dev and make it into one 'a them Genshin Impacts.

i still say that a partially-finished, round-robin, genre-blending, anime-inspired epic that i helped write on a now-shuttered private forum twenty years ago somehow reshaped the future of popular culture through psychic osmosis, otherwise HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THIS

https://youtu.be/PNrbMKZs6nY?si=EXn3rgD8-DbsCdbR

(YOU CAN'T)

[me, every morning] "okay, i have this timed out exactly. i'm showered, i'm dressed, i've budgeted five minutes to take my meds, find my keys and out the door, seven minutes on the clock, should leave in plenty of time. just need to put my socks and shoes on."

*sits down on edge of bed*

[brain] "NOW ENTERING 'CONTEMPLATE OWN EXISTENCE FOR AN UNDETERMINED LENGTH OF TIME' MODE"

*twenty minutes later* "...fuck"

i was alive when the promise of tomorrow was enough.

i have not forgotten.

i reject the false future of demagogues, oligarchs, fascists and techbros.

i choose the Infinite Arcade.

it awaits us.

https://youtu.be/zdIc3CHvmzo?si=hieqO6NLVFecKx5h

welp that's the other shoe...literally. swanky!job has officially turned me down. i'm not shocked, just disappointed. i was looking forward to the possibility of having to weigh pros and cons of both places and make a choice that was going to benefit me. it would have been nice.

on the other hand, i know me, and getting a cushy, high-paying job in a very high-rent area of the city doing something i'm juuuuuust barely qualified to do would probably set off my impostor syndrome pretty bad and made me even more paranoid and insular, always afraid of upsetting someone or becoming a target of scrutiny. the place where i'm working now, it seems a little more grounded, a bit more in my league. or maybe this is what i'm telling myself.

either way, i am doing my best to internalize the Picard Maxim: it is possible to make no mistakes, and still lose. That is not weakness, that is life. And keep your jumpsuit tugged down at the waist, for fuck's sake, nobody wants to see it all bunched up around your ears.