AAAAA NEW #VNVNATION AAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*runs screaming over the horizon, appears shortly over other side of the horizon, screaming directly into camera* AAAAAAAAAAA
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seeing how my teenaged nephew is navigating the rough seas of being too smart for his own good but easily frustrated to the point of anger when confronted with a problem outside of his mental sphere is making me recall basically everything i went through at his age. remembering being brought to fury and tears when something that was simple to others was incomprehensible to me, and how all offers of help regardless of intent were poisoned with patronizing and belittling so i pushed them away--besides, not figuring it out myself meant i was a loser. there was no acceptance of help that didn't lead to a shameful bout of self-loathing. i didn't understand that it didn't have to and shouldn't have been that way.
trying my best to offer help to him without triggering his "don't tell me what to do or how to do it" instinct.
i wish i could go back and cut out the bits where i learned everything wrong.
long vent about transphobia, uspol, begpost? sure
texas' senate just introduced a bill which would allow any medical provider providing gender affirming care to anyone to be sued for malpractice. i saw this coming. you probably did too. they said they would do it, and here we are. i guess we got what we deserved for being from a red state.
but i'm from dallas. i've never lived anywhere else but texas. it's a part of who i am that i'm from here. now that part of me is being torn out of my chest and smashed to bits in front of me by an apartheid government of rich white bastards who maintain their hold on power with dirty tricks and police violence. i am being told, more or less explicitly, that i am not wanted in the only home i've ever had because i made the stupid decision to hold myself out to the world as transgender. they'll cut off our healthcare, then they'll cut off our heads when they decide we're not "going away" fast enough.
they hate us. i hate myself, too, for what it's worth. i hate myself because i feel like i'm a coward for not standing up and fighting at every opportunity. yes, i've been to protests and made my voice heard. i even thought about voting for all the good it will do. but i can't just go fistfight dan patrick until he decides trans people are okay actually. i'm going to run away like i always have before, and i'm going to think of all the people i'm leaving behind when i do just to twist the knife a little bit. i feel like there's an octopus trapped in my chest trying to worm its way out through my throat and scream "STAND AND FIGHT YOU COWARD!"
but that's how i feel. none of the so-called "cis allies" who i've been navigating recently are going to put their lives on the line just to help trans people. they get to read about our impending genocide in the morning paper and go "oh that's so sad. if only there were something i could do." and then PUT US OUT OF THEIR MINDS BECAUSE WE'RE TOO PONDEROUS. that guilt tearing me up because i won't fight pales in comparison to the feeling that we've been betrayed somehow, because they won't fight. we're dealing with our own battles, and there are too few of us trans people spread too thin for the onslaught of ghoulish right-wing political violence that we now face practically everywhere south of the Mason-Dixon.
AND WE DON'T GET TO TURN THE TV OFF AND HAVE IT STOP HAPPENING.
i got called "brave" for going to a family event as myself yesterday, but. i can't be anyone else. and i am so tired of being brave. i want to be safe. i want to be among kin. i want to rest. i want a place where i can be myself without having to stare down a Roganesque escaped gorilla with a .45 screaming "PEDOPHILE MARXIST GROOMER" in my face every so often. i want a place where i don't have to be "brave" to go to the damn grocery store.
i wish it could have been my home.
if you can, please donate to my liberapay and help me and two other trans women get the hell out of here. www.liberapay.com/thufie/donate
@Paul_Sebert if they blasted the arena with "Vultan's Theme" from Flash Gordon every game opener i would buy season tickets.
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Eventually, though, the fascists will have worked their way through everyone between you and them and then maybe the threat will be apparent?
You'll have a lot less allies by then, though, because the fascists will have killed and imprisoned the rest of us.
So, you know, by all means, take your sweet fucking time figuring it out.
Huey P. Newton was born #OTD in 1942. He co-founded the Black Panther Party (BPP) and its subsequent newspaper, and co-wrote the Party’s 10-point manifesto. Through the BPP he helped create over 60 community programs, including Free Breakfast for Children, which was so successful that the US government continued it even after using #COINTELPRO to discredit it.
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#history #USA #BlackPantherParty #BlackHistoryMonth #communism #ToWeRi #Feb17
@anthracite "House Nyarlathotep. would you like to take a pamphlet?"
#cyberdeck CLRKNOV4 is taking shape. upper case dremeled out to make room for the keyboard.
yes, i fucked up pretty bad in a few places, and yes, the electrical tape is a horrible kludge that i will probably work on. but as it is, the keyboard is typable, which is what i was aiming for.
now for the rest of it, which i have a pile of vague guesses about, but then again, vague guesses have gotten me this far.
Do you folks sincerely believe the Holocaust happened because 6 million Jewish people were not good at making the argument and not very polite?
Cause some of your replies seem to indicate that.
You beat fascism, by stomping fascists. Being "correct" didn't help one person the fascists murdered in history and it's not gonna help you here.
This is ENTIRELY MY POINT; your liberal frame of reference is USELESS here. You fight, or they kill you. End of story.
A few days ago, I tweeted a flyer about a protest against Jordan Peterson in Seattle. I was subsequently screenshotted by Andy Ngo and mass reported by his goons, resulting in my permanent suspension from twitter.
SO! Please help spread the news: Jordan Peterson is coming to town, and Twitter is censoring the opposition! The original flyers from my tweets are attached. These are autonomous actions.
@sasha_strange “Historians have a word for Germans who joined the Nazi party, not because they hated Jews, but out of a hope for restored patriotism, or a sense of economic anxiety, or a hope to preserve their religious values, or dislike of their opponents, or raw political opportunism, or convenience, or ignorance, or greed.
That word is "Nazi." Nobody cares about their motives anymore.”
― A.R. Moxon
@dolari make it so.
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